9 of Wands and 8 of Chalices
Today's cards actually go exactly with the blog post I planned to write today which always leaves me amused since, to me, I find it a message Spirit is really trying to communicate and this one is one that I've spoken about a bit before which is letting go. Release that which doesn't serve you.
Lately, have you found yourself just in a funk? You are so overwhelmed, stressed, upset, and pissed off? You feel like you're constantly struggling and everything is an uphill battle? Like it's sort of got to the point where you're very guarded and constantly vigilant as you just know something is about to happen...like you're just ready to defend what you feel, think, believe, etc.
Well, I can tell you that this doesn't serve you. Ask yourself what is making you feel so distressed and leery? What causes you to stand guard and prepare for battle? Then ask yourself, does it have to be in your life? If it doesn't then why keep it around? If it does, what can you do to limit it's impact? Finally, if it doesn't fit, if you can get rid of it, then what are some ways in which to do so that don't feed your anger?
What? Feed your anger? Yes, feed your anger. When we get into these mindsets we perceive everything as a threat and immediately go for the jugular. However, instead of being angry and crying "How dare they/them/it/etc!" you find that place within your heart where you focus on the love you have for yourself. Lovingly release the situation, person, people, circumstance, etc. Tell yourself that "I love myself enough to recognize this isn't good for me and therefore I release it."
Set firm boundaries but in a loving manner. Don't focus on the anxiety, hurt, pain, anger, etc. Instead allow yourself to feel immense love for not only yourself but the struggle. Yes, the struggle. Without it, we would never realize and recognize what we want in our lives, what doesn't serve us, and what lesson needed to be learned. The hard times are just as important as the good. Both are necessary.
Regardless of how long this situation has been in place, regardless of how long you've known someone, regardless of how you've always voted--whatever it is--you ARE allowed to change. You are allowed to let go. However, you may find just letting go isn't enough. You want emotional closure. Take responsibility for your part in the situation since rarely (unless talking politics) do we not also have a part that was played in the circumstances. Understand what role you played, how you acted/reacted/responded, and forgive all parties involved. The others may not deserve your forgiveness but it isn't for them. It's for you. Find the place within your heart where all love is and forgive them/it then release it. It happened, it's in the past, but you can and are moving on now.
You deserve peace and joy. Anything in your life that isn't allowing for those feelings, and are things you can change, then why keep them around? The New Year is tomorrow and as we go into this Dark Time of the Year, why continue carrying shit with us? We've certainly had much to reflect on this year, especially since we've had all the Retrogrades, and I know I have a bit of list myself to let go. So, stop catering to others, stop allowing shit to steal your joy, and be the magickal bad-ass you are. Live your life. Stop living for others. Life is too short, my friends.
*Cards are from the Lo Scarabeo Universal Tarot Deck*
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