If you follow me on any of my social media accounts, you'll know that the first week of January was full of new beginnings for me as I decided to start an entirely new blog that was going to replace this one. I even had a brand new blog post for it. Why a new blog? The truth is that The Autumn Witch, while I dearly loved it since that's what my blog's name has been for years!, just felt constricting in content and frankly, tacky. I thought it was stereotypical and cliche, giving me the impression that others may not see me as a serious witch. Silly, isn't it?
So, after weeks of floundering for the perfect name, I finally came upon The Heart-Centered Hexe. To me, being heart-centered means coming from a place of authenticity and love. A place where I listen and follow my spirit because I am confident in myself. It’s about going through my life and path with love, compassion, grace, and understanding. Hexe is simply the German word for witch and I specifically decided to use it in honor of my German ancestry. So, there I was with a new blog, new color scheme, new post, with all my social handles changed to boot and all seemed great! Slowly though I began to feel a little off though I couldn't explain it.
I ended up sick with one hell of a nasty bug the week after publishing the site that left me in bed for several days so I didn't give it any more thought. I'd figured it would come to me eventually so what was the point in worrying over it? Especially while sick? I didn't get better until late Thursday night which was perfect, considering I'd been praying to do something for the Full Moon Friday. Since it was an eclipse, I personally prefer not to do any sort of spellwork but instead simply honored the Goddess, especially the Mother. It was as I was meditating with Her that I heard a simple message, "All because something is a new beginning doesn't mean you're starting from the very beginning.". This hadn't been the first time I'd heard this message but I'd forgotten about it.
When we start something again, we aren't starting at the very beginning as we've done some of the work. We've figured out what does and doesn't work. We come from a place of experience. We can go back to the very start, to the rudimentary basics, but we still have more knowledge than when we started in the very beginning. So, while it's good to strengthen the foundations, we're actually wasting effort by tossing everything out to start over. Sometimes we just need to eliminate what isn't sufficing, shift some things around, and start from there.
I'd actually had this message crop up once before when I felt called to change my pantheon and I'd made the decision to do my year and a day since, honestly, I've never managed to finish it. I'd start then end up busy and forgetting. I was told that I didn't need to return to the beginning stages since I'd already set those up. I could build upon what I've learned while learning about this new pantheon. I could strengthen my basics, make a commitment to mark every sabbat and esbat, and continue with what I was already doing for my year and a day. It was unnecessary to go to the very beginning, scraping everything I'd already learned. You know?
I'd come to realize that when it came to my blog, I didn't need to chuck it all away since I was proud of my content I'd already published and the site I'd created. The color scheme and layout still resonated. My issue had been the name so why was I trying to build something from the ground up when I already had created my foundation? I'd already laid the bricks and started building? I simply needed to change the sign.
That's one reason honestly I'm not fond of New Year's Resolutions as we end up pushing instead of allowing. Yes, we have to put effort into creating any type of change or manifesting anything but what I mean is we end up feeling pressured to start on January 1st which may lead to us either not properly planning, choosing something vague instead of specific, or too overtly specific that we block out Spirit's help. I'd been so antsy to get the new site done that I pushed and stressed, ignoring any nudges I may have gotten, which led to me creating the site, yes, but it wasn't what I was supposed to do.
Don't throw away the hard work you've already done simply because you want to start again. You can start from where you are. You don't have to return to the starting line. You got off track...all you have to do is find your way back onto the path and go from there.
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